Laying here…
In my bed attempting to sleep, I feel like a ball of emotions wrapped into one. I feel like this year hasn’t started off good. My emotions are running like a rollercoaster! Up and down, up and down. Honestly, it’s frustrating to be feeling this way. In hopes with typing this up, I HOPE I’ll be able to fall asleep cause honestly, I have WAY too much on my mind. Doesn’t really help that in feeling slightly dizzy. Might be from the lack of sleep. Man, I remember when I could go on through the day with 6 hours. Another thing that is bugging me is an incident that happened today. I feel ( and am still ) feeling REALLY stupid for acting out without thinking. I feel horrible that I almost ended a really great friendship with someone I really care about. I don’t know how that person deals with my b.s. Especially with my freak outs. Quick to anger is honestly a flaw that I had thought I’ve (not totally dismissed) gotten better at. Guess there’s still a lot I need to work on. Easily angered and easily annoyance need to be on my agenda of “taming attitudes”. Hopefully now that I’ve typed this up, I’ll be able to sleep. Along with a long….long apology. Goodnigt.
