Effin blood test..
I REALLY don’t wanna go to SF tmr…esp. when i have to go again next thurs for a check up causing me to have to take my midterm earlier. i am SO not happy about that. uGh! it’s effin 3 in the morning…gotta take my mom to her dentist cleaning at 9 tmr..then going out o sf and taking a taxi to UCSF. HOPEFULLY my dad can drive my mom and i there… BLAH! i am in a REALLY unhappy mood right now. I don’t know if it’s the weather that’s causing this or the amount of stress i’m having. i seriously need to put more efforts in my classes..no joke. stupid 4 months of summer ruined me. i still feel like i’m on vacation! UGH! back to the blood test…i honestly don’t know where i can take a blood test in CV. everytime i google search it…it comes up “blood test to see if you’re preggo”. seriously? that’s not information i need google. i’m DEF. not preggo. taking a blood test doesn’t mean i wanna know if i have a STD or not. I JUST WANNA FIND A PLACE TO TAKE MY BLOOD TEST TO FIND MY VITAMIN D LEVEL! I wonder who came up with a theory of having more vitamin d within your body would cause less exacerbation in the M.S world.can’t they just have a pill that comes out already? i’m honestly sick of shots. i’ve missed several already due to a) insurance issues and b) me being way to tired to want to take that shot. i honestly think due to the insurance issues in the past, it has cause my brain to think…oh…you missed a month of shots and nothing happened, its’ ok if you keep missing.
bad i know…but, i hate these shots. 5 years of shots and…BLAH! they still find some plaque in my brain. wtf? even though i’m showing no signs of symptoms..(cept now…my legs are actually feeling uHm…not numb but….kinda weird…hence people seeing me walk would prob think wtf? cause i can’t walk straight, even though my coordination is bad already, even w/o M.S) In any case, i lost my train of thought..I honestly think my cognitive learning has decreased a lot…I can feel that when I’m trying to learn something new, it’s really hard for me..I don’t know. Maybe i need to take another test to see if my learning abilities have decreased. My spelling is obviously a lot worse sadly..-_-. boo….
I think coming to a realization of this, it’s making me feel both bad and good. Ranting at three am in the morning makes me realize things I haven’t thought of before. maybe cause, like i’ve said before, everything is worst at night. what is it about the night time causing people’s emotion (esp. annoyance and anger) to exemplify?…hRm….whatever..I need to sleep….if i’m running on 5 hours of sleep..i better start night. enjoy my ranting..if anyone’s gonna read it…
